Confessions of a Closet Nerd

slowly making my way out…

Happy Faylentine’s Day

Why Faylentine’s Day? Because today is going to be about me. I don’t talk about my feelings much mostly because I’m scared of being viewed as weak or being judged. But whatever, I really don’t give a shit because this needs to be done. Holding onto all of this resentment is incredibly unhealthy and blocking a lot of good from coming into my life. I’ve known this for a long time but it’s time for me to finally accept it

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20 Days of WoW Blogging: This Upsets You

There isn’t much that really upsets me. I get more annoyed than upset these days but I’m sure most people who I associate with know that dealing with me while annoyed isn’t very fun. Plus, I usually go insta-introvert and get really quiet and agitated when I’m annoyed so it’s probably pretty obvious.

What really boils my ass is the whole cyber-bullying, internet tough guy crap. I’m sorry, but if you’re that big of a poon and have to hide behind your computer to spurt insults just because, you’ve got issues. It happens in Warcraft every day and even with the thick skin that I’ve inherited through being bullied as a child, it gets old. There’s nothing more revealing about a person’s principles and self-esteem than how you act in an anonymous realm and some of the people I’ve seen in Warcraft are pretty freaking ugly and lacking.

That’s one of the reasons why I try to stay pretty invisible outside of my guild which is pretty easy these days with LFR, LFD and running server pugs. If I do catch myself in a pug situation, I usually stay pretty quiet and pray that any guildies that are with me don’t reveal that I’m African American, black, NOT WHITE. The first response if/when they find out is, “ZOMG, YOU DON’T SOUND BLACK!!!” To which I have to wonder, what the fuck does a black person sound like? Then of course, it becomes socially acceptable to tell racial jokes which don’t necessarily bother me but is it necessary?

Outside of me, I recall an End Time heroic I was in. There was a healer, tank and a mage all from the same guild, a Death Knight and of course me. The DK moved really.. weird, for lack of better words and I assumed he was having some sort of equipment malfunction or was taking breaks here and there to talk in g-chat. His dps was rather low but that’s not really new and you could tell something wasn’t quite right there. At this point, I’m more annoyed with the three guildmate’s behavior than this kids dps. We get to Echo of Tyrande, oh you know.. the fight where if you’re ranged you spread out? They literally stand on TOP of the Death Knight trying to kill him. Meanwhile he is just dpsing away and interrupting his little head off. Once again, insults fly because his dps was low. We get to the last boss do our thing and the mage is going OFF on the DK when the DK finally says something to the effect of, “Hey, you know what? I’m pretty much handicapped and don’t have full function of my hands and I came back to the game to check out the new heroics to see if they were any good. I’m sorry for being such a burden to you” and leaves. I was floored.

But I’m babbling. All of this also branches out to sexuality, gender, etc. Why can’t we just accept the person behind the avatar as who they are in-game? We’re all inside the game for a common goal, correct? Does it really matter if the person behind the avatar is gay, straight, black, white, skinny or fat? No! So stop being ignorant and kill something because more than 90% of you hate spouting nerds wouldn’t say half the shit you do in real life and if you did, you’d get your ass beat.

Life is too short for the bullshit.

Be excellent to each other.

Previous Days 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13.

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RAGE: 99 Problems and my Authenticator Ain’t One…

For a number of reasons, mostly because my brother whom I’m currently living with is a rotten sack of farts, I’ve been using my Android to tether and use the internets. Yes, even to play WoW. Its laggy and unstable, but I’m currently retired from raiding and levelling toons, learning to PvP and farming random mats to continue my legacy as a WoWtrepreneur. With that, the IP changes a lot. Like, a few times a day. And this looks rather suspect to the log in system even though I’ve got an authenticator.


And this is what I’m greeted with. Well, along with having to prove its me by answering my SUPER SEKRIT QUESTION and giving a drop of blood, an eyescan and a lock of hair. And then finally opportunity to change my password. But hey, at least I know I didn’t get hacked or some other silliness. Oh, and I have a Corehound pet. So I guess in retrospect it could be worse. It could be one of those lame ass captcha deals where you’ve got to prove that you’re HUMAN to access your account.


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